Updated: Jun 25, 2019
I wanted to share a very special and quite mystical experience I had the other day. I am definitely still integrating this and looking at it from different perspectives. I had agreed to look after my parents pets for a couple of days. I don't live in the same country, so it meant I had to travel and get on a plane to my parents home, which is also the house I grew up in. It was a bit chaotic the way I arrived there. I don't normally stay at my parents house, but they gave me the wrong key and it was the only place I could go to straight after arriving. I wasn't particularly excited about it - and my feelings were confirmed as I got there, was in the house and felt extremely uncomfortable. The house is beautiful, they have recently changed it up, but the longer I was in it, the more I felt caged and unpleasant memories of this place started to come up. I was itching to move and leave.
To pass the time, I decided to read a few pages in a book that I had recently found - about the story of "Grandfather", an immortal master of native American heritage that has lived in the wilderness of the United States for all his life. He is an excellent tracker, medicine man and seer. It is a beautiful magical book that takes you on a journey of self discovery. As I was reading, I started to become filled with emotion and stopped reading to go down the stairs of the house. I had to sit down and started crying from the depths of my soul. It was a huge emotional release that had to do with my childhood, with emotional abuse, the life in the house I was in - which felt like a golden cage. Somehow I felt that I was simultaneously clearing another timeline with similar experiences of abuse that I still held in my body. And before I could think that this was somehow linked to "Grandfather" and the collective consciousness of his tribe, he appeared right next to me in spirit. I could not believe seeing and feeling this loving master right by my side. This has been the strongest "sense" I ever had of the unseen realm. I understood he was here not only to support my healing, but that we would walk together for a bit now as he wanted to show me a few things and it almost feels like the rediscovery of a knowledge deep inside me - the wisdom of my ancestors. I had always detached myself from the idea of any form of ancestry or "relation" to something specific, but this feels different.
I felt a tremendous shift after this release and also shortly thereafter found the right key to the place I was meant to stay at so I could leave the house. This truly felt like a last piece of something and the beginning of something new. It all makes sense, if you have read my last post about the loosening up of the concept of "family", you know that I have been breaking this one up in bits and pieces. I just didn't expect to meet such a loving "family" in the form of Grandfather instead. Which has shown me how guided we truly are at all times. Your ancestors are with you and inside of you. xx Lena